Sunday, January 9, 2011

Hate Loss:Update

I am late with posting this. I had actually made an update post a few days ago but it is still sitting in draft I don't have enough courage to post it. I am a very private person when it come to my emotions. It takes a lot for me to reveal my pain and hurt even to myself. For that reason alone this challenge is turning out to be more difficult than I expected it to be. I revealed in a previous post that I don't look at myself in the mirror. Over the years, I have learned how to focus on applying my make up and fix my hair without seeing myself. This week I stood in the front of the mirror and I just stared directly at my image. I didn't think about positive things to say but I also did not think anything negative. 

When I went out I did not avoid my reflection in the store windows I looked at myself. A few times I even gave myself a smile. In the next coming days I am going to be more proactive but for now I am excited about how things are going. Until the next post! 


  1. Shannie, a massive well done to you. I'm talking high fives, hugs and shouting woooo at the top of our voices.

    I look forward to reading your future updates on this challenge. It's going to be tough for us all but I also think its an important challenge where we will learn a lot about ourselves.

  2. I agree with you Tim I think I am learning too much about myself though. But something I realise is that you can only sweep things under the rug for so long...