Goals for the Week

Last Week I ate horribly. So this week I intend to eat mostly fruits and vegetables for the next three days to give my system a chance to rest from all the bad eating I did last week. I didn't weigh in on Friday for the same reason. I did not want to see a gain on the scale because that is quite discouraging. I probably will not weigh myself until next week Friday, this is when I give a progress of my first 30days of the 90days Challenge.  

My exercise for this week will be low impact for the same reason that I want to give my body a rest. I do plan on exercising 7 days this week though. I may do a few Yoga Booty Ballet workouts this week. But I will make separate exercise post. If not every day every other day. In addition, I will do Walk Away the Pounds workouts.

Yesterday workout did not go the way I wanted it to go. I did the Turbo Jam Total Body workout for about 20mins, then I switched to Turbo Jam lower body workout, my sister was baking cake in the kitchen and so the house was extremely hot which made me nauseous so I had to abandon my workout. But I still manage to get in 40mins of exercise last night. (between the two Turbo Jam exercises.)

This week is my go hard or go home week. I have to prove to myself that I can stay on plan. 

Thanks for Reading! Until Next time

Hate Loss Challenge Final Update:

I am late again with posting this update... Sorry! This week wasn't my best of weeks and I hate posting when I am not in the mood cause I tend to have this dull personality. I am still not 100% feeling it but it has to be done... That was my disclaimer. 

First off I would like to thank Ellen for hosting such a great challenge. I am happy that I did it. It was truly a learning experience one that I am sure will continue to have an impact on my life. 

When I first decided to join I really didn't think I needed to join. I thought that I was a very positive person already and of course I had some issues with myself but for the most part I thought I had a handle on my issues. I didn't realize how deep in denial I was. Seriously, you can find my picture next to the word in the dictionary. I have learned so much about myself this month. I have learned that I probably need to talk to a professional. I know that keeping stuff inside does not make it go away. I also learned that happiness starts from within. So far this year I have been having a difficult time with my emotions but I am not going to let that get me down I am going to push through because everything is only for a season. I truly believe that life's obstacles are only there to make us stronger. If I can survive the hard times I know there isn't anything that can keep from becoming a better me. 

Update 90Days to Fitness Days 8-13(?)

Monday: Day 8 Went really well.  I did 30 Day Shred, Then I did a 5miles of Leslie Sanson and I did a bit of the BL JumpStart something of another workout. My thoughts on 30 Day Shred. Ouch! I would say the same for BL though. I am going to try to do 30day Shred at least once a week. I tend to stay away from workouts that make me hurt. Yea I don't like pain.

Tuesday Day 9. I did another 5mile walk. What more can I say?, Leslie keeps me inspired. It;s a workout I can actually do without having to beg my heart to stay in my chest.

Wednesday Day 10. I did the 3miles DVD.

Thursday: Day 11: I did a 2mile walk DVD

Friday Day 12: Lazy Day, I did nothing. I can make excuses I have a dime a dozen but yea...lol

Saturday Day: 13 Life happens? Another day with no exercise.

Once I am done with the posting I do my workouts for today. I plan on doing Turbo Jam Total Body Blast. Leslie Sanson 2mile Healthy Heart walk, if I decide to do something else I will say in my update.

Boring post I know, Sorry. Hope the next ones are better.

90 Days to Better Fitness Day 6+7 Completed!

Day 6 Recap: My day 6 started of good. I had a nice breakfast (maybe too nice) I made pancakes and I ate eggs and ham. Then I did 10mins of Insanity (which I now think was a very bad idea) then I did about 10mins of Yoga Booty Ballet. (I wasn't really in the mood of doing that so I stopped). Then I had a huge binge feast. I don't know why but I was eating everything in sight. I had two pudding snacks, yogurt, a small bag of chips, some cookies and noodles and this was all in one sitting. I also had a huge amount of bbq ribs and baked macaronni.  So I ate all those things back to back and I still wasn't full. However, I managed to prevent myself from eating anymore than that. I honestly cannot remember the last time I ate that much at one point. I don't think I ever did that. I am kind of hoping that it was actually a bad dream. You know one of those dreams that feel so real but luckily it is not? Yeah I am just going to claim denial on that one. Day 6 is behind me and I am not letting it ruin the rest of my 90 days. Luckily when I weighed myself this morning I was still at 203lbs. Tom is visiting this week so I think he is the culprit of my binge feast. 

Day 7 Went a whole lot better. I did Turbo Fire Sculpt 30 class (30mins), Then I did Turbo Jam Cardio Party 2 (45min workout) , finally I did three miles of Leslie Sansone (5Mile Advance Walk). (37mins). I did not have a problem with my eating today. I ate like I normally do.  I am pleased with how today went. 

Tomorrow starts Week 2 of this whole 90 days to fitness.  I will post a plan for week 2 tomorrow. I am going to focus a bit more on my eating. I want to start eating cleaner. I am thinking about trying out this diet (way of eating) that I found in a book.(I will talk more about the book in a separate post and more about the diet tomorrow). Before this post gets too long I am going to say good night. I have to start sleeping longer.4-5 hours of sleep isn't cutting it anymore. 

Thanks for reading I hope everyone else had a great week. 

90 Days to Better Fitness Day 4 + 5 Completed!

Day 4: Over and done! Short and simple I did Turbo Fire 30 Class + Stretch 10 and I also did 1 Mile of walking. I had intended to do 4miles of walking but I was way too sleepy and therefore I could only push myself to through the first mile. I feel good about what I did because previously I said that I would take it a bit easier however I still managed to get in a good workout. Additionally, I can tell that my endurance is building because I was able to get through 24mins of Turbo Fire without taking a break, and before I was crying after 5mins.

Day 5: I did a five mile walk! I did the Leslie Sansone Walk away the pounds Advance 5mile walk. YAAAAAAAAAY Me. Over the last 5days I have walked 18miles! To be honest I do not want to do any more walking DVDs this week. Even though, I probably will. I am thinking about giving zumba another try. But I will be sure to fill you in tomorrow! I am also wanting to give JM 30 day shred another try. I hated both workouts with a passion but I know several bloggers rave about those two workouts so I am willing to give it another try. Of course my mind can always change but I will fill you in when I post about my day 6. 

On to Day 6! Oh one more thing I went on the scale today and lost 2lbs I went from 205 to 203! Yaaaay I am almost back to the 202 number that pledged me for so long. I am excited yaaaay!. I am not getting back on a scale until Wednesday. I am hoping to lose two more pounds by then. 

Self Control

(I wrote this last week but it was just sitting in draft. I decided to go ahead and post it.)

My self control went out the window so long ago that I have no idea when I originally lost it. I remember when I could say no to food but now it is such a struggle. Why does food have such a control over me? That is the question I asked myself today. I am on a quest to answer that question. I do not believe in restricting myself because it normally leads to binging but I want to stay away from junk foods and sugary items. I want to say no to my cravings and gain back my self control. I want to say no I don't want to any ice cream and feel good about my decision. This is what a typical day is like for me...

Me: Wow that chocolate looks good

My Mind: Do you want it?

Me: Nah I am not sure

My Mind: Me either but maybe you should get it cause you may want it later

Me; I don't know I don't want it now.

This is what Happens if I get it:

My Mind: Oh I just remembered you got a chocolate bar why don't you eat it

Me: Nah I don't feel like it

Stomach: Yea we don't want it, I am full. 

My Mind: You bought it, you might as well eat it. What's the point having it sit there. If you didn't want it you should have left it in the shop

Me: Did you just say that? You told me to get it

My Mind: Now I am telling you to eat it

Stomach: Damn here she goes again, I am full and gatta make room for this too...

Mouth: MMMMMMMMMMM yummy

Me: I really gatta do better

This is what happens when I don't get it:

My Mind: You really should have gotten that chocolate. I don't understand why you didn't get it. If you had gotten it then we could have had some chocolate right now. But NOOOOOOOOOOOO you had to be the one to say no. What you saying no for anyways? All you have to do is exercise a bit more. Isn't that what exercise is for? Now all us grumbling because you didn't get it. You should have gotten the chocolate. Tomorrow we are going to get two to make up for the one we missed today. 

Stomach and Mouth: We second and third that! (Meaning we also agree)

Hate Loss Update #3

The biggest difficulty I have been facing  is my inability to look in the mirror and be happy with what I see. Another issue I have is admitting that I have low self esteem. Just typing that makes me cringe. I am confused about how I feel about myself because I think I am pretty confident. I know that I am not ugly or anything. I have been told one too many times that I am beautiful. Yet, I hate looking in the mirror. 

I have concluded that my fear of the mirror goes beyond my physical appearance. When I look at myself I see years and years of pain that I have endured. I spent a long time feeling unwanted and unloved. I had to deal with suicidal thoughts and I had to deal with feeling worthless. All of which has nothing to do with the way I look. 

I became emotionally unattached at such a young age, and I felt as though I always had to be on guard. I couldn't allow myself to care about others because they would leave or hurt me. It was very hard for me to trust people. Then I met Sir and the first two years were hard and I had to overcome my trust issues but he stuck by me and now I am open to interacting with others. Although I have learned how to trust others, I am still having problems accepting myself, forgiving myself so that I am able to let go of the pain. This is a work in progress. My first step is just to admit that I have a problem. My last post for next week will probably be about what I am doing to be able to accept myself.  

Dry Brushing, Detox talk

In the post that I made earlier I mentioned two things that I want to talk a little bit more about. Firstly, I said that I get really itchy when I start sweating and from the responses that I got, I am happy to know that I am not the only one! The second thing that I mentioned was that I wanted to do a 7 day cleanse. By cleanse I mean that I want to do a detox, the most popular one at the moment seems to be the master cleanse. This is where you would drink a lemonade (for simplicity of terms) for a number of days. I have read a lot of mixed reviews about this one but I and sort of interested in doing it.


Another option that I would most likely commit to is the fruit and vegetable detox. (I provided a link below that explains this in details) I have done the fruit and veggie detox before unfortunately the longest I stayed on it was 2 days (boooo) when I actually wanted to do five days. 

For those of you who may not know, the purpose of a detox/ cleanse is to rid the body of toxins that it has accumulated over the years. This can be environmental toxins, toxins you get from eating, or even from the products you use on you skin and hair. There are a number of benefits related to doing detoxes. The most popular reason why some people choose to do it is to lose weight. My reason for wanting to do it is to give my system a chance to rest and get clean. My only problem at the moment is because I am trying to exercise more and improve my fitness I cannot do a detox because you are not allowed to exercise while you are detoxing. (it is recommended not to exercise anyways) Which finally brings me to my topic which is dry brushing.

What is dry brushing? 

Dry brushing is simply using a loofah or a natural bristle brush to rub or  massage your skin in hopes of ridding the body of toxin amongst other things. 

It is recommended that you do it before taking a shower so you can wash away the impurities when you are done brushing. According to this website:  "Dry brushing is an excellent way to wake up and start the day.  It rejuvenates, invigorates and supports one of the skin’s important functions, ridding the skin of accumulated toxins."

I want to try this out. I don't want to make this post any longer than it already is so I will post links of websites you can read if you want to know more about the fruit and veggie detox or even dry brushing.

Thanks for reading! Have you ever done a detox? What was your experience?

More information on dry brushing:

• http://www.drybrushing.net/
• Video demonstration There is no way you don't think this looks relaxing

More Info on Detoxing

• http://drbenkim.com/full-body-cleanse.htm

90 days to better fitness Day 3

I am going to keep this short and sweet. Day 3 is over and done with! I did Walk away the pounds Advance walk. I did 3 miles in 35mins and my legs and back and arms are extremely sore!(This is from the three days of working out though) I also tried to do Davina Super Body workout but I could only finish 14mins of it. (total of 40mins). Tomorrow I think I am only going to do 1mile and then a stretch class just to give my body a bit of a chance to recover from the soreness.

I had to push myself to work out today. I almost used rest day as an excuse, however since I am still at the beginning of my quest to get this done I don't want to give myself a chance to be derailed. So I pushed through it. I may grumble while I am doing it but I still try to give it my all. Not wanting to do it seems to make finishing it a bit sweeter as well.

Finally, I want to thank everyone for the encouragement. I really appreciate it! You all are giving me the strength to finally change my life for the better!

Until tomorrow

90 days to better fitness Day 2.

So I let the devil fool me into thinking that I could do 60mins of Total Body Blast (I think it's called) by Chalene, it is a part of her turbo jam series. Before I got the dvd, I read a lot of reviews and everyone was talking about how difficult the workout was and how they barely can get through it. As I stated in my last posts, I am trying to push myself beyond what I normally did as far as exercise is concerned and I thought this was the perfect workout to do just that. 

Before I get into how I did, I am going to tell you a little bit more about the work out. It uses one of those big inflatable balls to help work you out. For the most part the workout moves are focused on toning but there is a cardio aspect involved as well. I thought the ball would make working out a bit easier cause you know I would be sitting some times and what is more comfortable than sitting? Oh boy was I wrong. I am still sore from that work out. I was able to keep up really well for the first 15mins then everything went down hill from there. My body was aching so much, it was hard to balance on that ball and do crunches! Because not only are you lifting your body you have to freaking balance on that dumb ball! Long story short I was only able to do about 24mins of the 60mins. I was fine with that because the next time I do the workout (maybe next week) I will try to do at least 30mins of it. I think I may have pushed myself a little bit to hard on this one though because I felt nauseous for a long time after I stopped working out. I don't know the reason for it, because I had just eaten about an hr before started exercising and I also had some water on hand. I can tell that that dvd is good for toning because for the first time since high school my arms and abs are sore. 

Later, I decided to do Leslie Sansone 5mile Fat burning walk. It was about 11pm when I started. I have to say I did less complaining than I did the night before. Firstly, I already had an idea of what to expect. Secondly I had successfully done 4miles the night before so I could at least finish that and I did. The last mile I had to really push through but I got it done. 

So with that, day 2 was complete. 

One more point, question, comment: Does anyone else get itchy when they sweat a  lot? My skin starts itching and I get I guess I can call them hives on my legs. At first I thought maybe it was a mosquito or something but I haven't seen a mosquito in months and I know for sure we don't have fleas or bedbugs or anything like that. So I just want to know if anyone else experiences this. I have come to the conclusion that my body is just full of toxins and ish so thats why my skin is itchy when I sweat. Some time in the coming months I want to do a 7 Day cleanse/detox. But that will probably be after my 90days to better fitness. 

90 days to better fitness Day 1.

Last week I made a post about my desires to become more fit this year. I listed my goals and I said what I was going to do to achieve those goals. I had originally posted that I would start on Wednesday, 12 January however, some things are easier said than done. My mind was not in the right place to begin on Wednesday. So I decided to put it off for Monday, 18 January (yesterday). I did two exercise sessions. The first one I did was Walk away the Pounds: Healthy Heart Walk by Leslie Sansone and it was a two mile walk. I did that exercise around 11am after my breakfast. I think it is a 30min workout. If you read that post I did I said that I would do a minimum of an hour a day. Anyways, the rest of the day I lounged around and I made no effort to exercise anymore. I was feeling discouraged and I was prepared to procrastinate the rest of my day away. By 10pm the A&E show Heavy came on and I got a renewed sense of motivation from Jodi.

Jodi wasn't the participant that worked through her pain, she nagged about it. At first she did not push herself enough she was ready to give up at the first sign of discomfort. I was so annoyed with her. I was literally talking to the screen saying what is wrong with you? The workout didn't seem that difficult! Don't you want to lose the weight???? Then I paused literally and I got a reality check and I said to myself "Look who's talking!" I feel like I am like Jodi. I talk about wanting to lose the weight but I don't (didn't) work hard enough. I was happy with doing the bare minimum and seeing minimum result. I convinced myself that it was ok to not lose any weight at least you didn't gain. Then when I did gain I said well at least you didn't gain it all back. What type of ish is that????? Really.

So once the show was over (11pm) I started Walk Away the pounds 4mile walk Super Charged. I hadn't reached the first mile yet and I was ready to quit! But I pushed through and I told myself to at least make it to a mile. So she announced that we had reached the one mile mark and I still wanted to quit but I told myself let's get to 2 miles and then to 3 and you know what happened? I finished. For the first time I was able to get to the 4mile mark. (60mins) My legs were burning and I was sweating gallons but I felt amazing. I felt amazing because I didn't let myself give up. I didn't baby myself and I didn't let myself give up! I have to say that again I didn't let myself GIVE UP!

Day 1 is over with, and I know I am going to have a lot of struggles for the next 89days but I am committed to this and I am not giving up. I will be reevaluating my goals though. I want to focus on one thing at a time. I do not want to get overwhelmed. I also realize that I cannot be confined to just one workout program. I have to mix it up and change trainers because I get bored with routine. I will do a report tomorrow (or maybe later tonight) on how today's workout went.

Heavy

Monday Night, “Heavy” premiered on A&E. In basic terms, it is a weight loss show. They take morbidly obese persons and give them the tools to lose weight. This show is not the average weight loss show, meaning that it is not a competition and the participants do not spend the full 6months secluded from their family and friends. The first month they are at a facility and then the next 5months they are allowed to work out from home with the condition that they continue to lose weight. If at any point, they regained weight they would have to go back to the facility.  

This week's show documented the journey of a 600+lb man and a 350+lb woman named Tom and Jodi. My heart went out to Tom early on in the episode. He had so much trouble with his health and with walking but he didn't seem to complain that much about it. Jodi on the other hand was quite annoying (at first) and I really thought she wasn't going to do a very good job losing weight. Cutting a long story short they both overcame their physical adversities, they both lost an impressive amount of weight in the 6months period and they both changed their lives for the better. Tom lost 153lbs and regained his mobility. Jodi lost 77lbs, rekindled her relationship with her husband, she become more active in her child’s life and she stood up to her mother who was in her words “a cancer in her life”. I seriously almost cried because I was so happy about the changes they were able to make in their lives.

What I liked about the show:

I liked that the show was more of a documentary rather than the typical weight loss show. The trainers were not yelling at the people or calling them fat and lazy. They appeared supportive and encouraging. I liked that they were not in the facility for the entire 6months. The truth of the matter is anyone can probably lose weight in a strict environment because distractions are removed. However, what happens when the person goes home? They have a higher chance of regaining the weight because they are faced with the same environment that helped to contribute to their weight gain to begin with. I think that having the persons work at achieving their goals at home was an essential part in the program because the weight loss was more in their hands. They had to work around the distractions of home in order to continue losing weight after they left the facility.

Finally, I liked seeing the struggles both persons were going through. Not because I am some sick person who gets pleasure out of seeing, other people struggle. It just made the show feel more authentic. We all know that losing weight isn't easy but some shows make it seem like all you have to do is just exercise hard and poof the weight is gone and all your problems are gone. When in reality it is not like that. Not only do you have to work hard on the physical, you also have to overcome mental and emotional barriers in order to lose weight, especially massive amounts of weight. I think the show did a great job with showing the connection between the two. I believe that there is no way a person can successfully lose weight and be happy without transforming his/herself completely and this means tending to the needs of the body, mind and spirit. 

Overall, I thought the show was inspiring. I am actually looking forward to the next week's episode.  

Me Stylish Really????

Hey Tim! Thanks for the Award! I am pretty sure you all know who Tim is but if you don't know him, go check his blog out! Trust me, you won't be disappointed. He is funny, he is a great blogger, he is doing really well with losing weight I can go on and on really. Go check him out!

According to the Rules I have to link you to his blog. (Which I have done)
Now I have to tell you 7 things about me.

1. I love travelling but I hate flying. I get really anxious before I get on a plane. I imagine myself having a fit, i have to coach myself into breathing and relaxing.

2. I am not a thrill seeker I am actually pretty boring. I believe life throws us enough thrills why should I risk my life bungee jumping? Heck no, I am not about to do anything like that.

3. I own about 300 romance novels. (Maybe more)

4. I could be a hoarder if I let myself get carried away. I have a small fear of throwing stuff away. (I am working on this) In nicer terms I am a collector...lol (hence the 300 novels)

5. I think about piercing  something (body part) every day. (I can be very obsessive with stuff. Do you see a pattern?)

6. I am really superstitious about certain things.

7. I learned how to crochet watching YouTube videos.

Now the hard part Nominate 5 others...

A lot of the persons I wanted to nominate already have the award. So I am just giving it to one person for the time being. What I am going to do is when I come across new blogs that I like I will just make a post about it.

Sarah @ NOT and Effing Diet: I just love that name! I just recently found her blog and I enjoy reading it.


 Final Note:

Thank you everyone for reading my blog and leaving me comments. I appreciate it. If you have a blog and I am not already following you leave your link in the comment section and I will be happy to follow you as well.

Hate Loss Update #2

For some reason this week's post is difficult for me to write, I spent all day yesterday trying to think of what to post. The problem wasn't that I didn't have anything to post about my problem was I had too much to post about. I decided that I will write a little about how I am feeling emotionally right now...

Since Sir left on Tuesday, I have experienced an overwhelming amount of emptiness. This is usually what happens when we have to say goodbye. He is one of the only persons that I have allowed myself to have a connection with (become attached to) since probably the death of my father (He died almost 20years ago). I am not as close to any of my family members or friends as I am with him. I can be 100% myself around him and he accepts me for who I am. Every time we have to say goodbye I am reminded of just how lonely I truly am. Now don't get me wrong I am not afraid of solitude, 

I actually prefer to not be around people for long periods. However, it is always a relief for me to be able to open up completely to someone else. My only problem with that is once he leaves I feel sad. That is quite normal, but what is not normal is that I take a while to get over it.  Once I allow myself to feel sad, all the sadness from other issues come up as well and I find myself fighting depression once again. Normally I just tell myself “Suck it up you big baby". This time I am doing something that I do not normally do. I am allowing myself to be sad for a minute and I am not going to stress about life. I am going to stay positive. With all that being said, I think my biggest accomplishment this week is realizing that it is OK to be vulnerable sometimes. That does not make me weak it just makes me human. 

Weight loss: Starting Over

Since the beginning of December I have not really been overly concerned about losing weight. I was more  concerned about everything else that was going on in my life, and as a result I wasn't putting myself first. 

I had made attempts to stay focused and work out but slowly but surely I revert to my old ways. I gained about 6lbs back. I was fine with it because I knew I was eating horribly and I knew I wasn't working out and  I wasn't doing much other than laying in bed eating junk food. Now I am done being fine with it. There is no excuse in the world that can justify my decisions. If it wasn't for the hate loss challenge I would be down right uncensored right now but yeah I have to stay positive...lol I have decided that I want to lose a minimum 30lbs within the next 3 months. 

• I am going to be working out for a minimum of 1hr a day. ( I will do more than this whenever possible but this is just the very minimum)
• I will be eating between 1200- 1500 calories. ( I know from experience that if I eat a low amount of calories and I work out hard I will not lose weight. So on days when I work out a lot I will eat more)
• I will be weighing myself every two weeks. (There are three weeks of the 15 in 15 challenge left so I will weigh myself once a week for this but once the challenge is over, I will only weigh myself once every two weeks.)
• I will post everyday. I noticed when I do not post often about my progress I get side tracked. 

My 90days of Change Starts on Wednesday. Sir is going home on Tuesday and school starts on Monday, so  Wednesday seems like the best time for me to go full force. 

Thanks for reading :D Until Next time! 

Hate Loss:Update

I am late with posting this. I had actually made an update post a few days ago but it is still sitting in draft I don't have enough courage to post it. I am a very private person when it come to my emotions. It takes a lot for me to reveal my pain and hurt even to myself. For that reason alone this challenge is turning out to be more difficult than I expected it to be. I revealed in a previous post that I don't look at myself in the mirror. Over the years, I have learned how to focus on applying my make up and fix my hair without seeing myself. This week I stood in the front of the mirror and I just stared directly at my image. I didn't think about positive things to say but I also did not think anything negative. 

When I went out I did not avoid my reflection in the store windows I looked at myself. A few times I even gave myself a smile. In the next coming days I am going to be more proactive but for now I am excited about how things are going. Until the next post! 

Hate-Loss Challenge:

LAZY, FAT, DISGUSTING, WORTHLESS, SCREWUP, if you are saying these words to yourself or any other negative word for that matter you should consider doing the Hate Loss Challenge, If you haven't guessed by now the hate loss challenge is about strengthening your self esteem by banishing self negativity. The challenge is being hosted by Ellen @ Fatgirlwearingthin and if you want to learn more about it or participate in it just click HERE. 

Why I am doing the challenge. 

I am doing the challenge because I hate looking in the mirror. Over the years I have learned how to look in the mirror without seeing myself. I want break though that mental wall I have put up to protect myself from myself and I want to truly be happy about who I am. I don't really have a plan of action for this challenge. I guess I will have to take it one day at a time and see where it takes me. I do plan to make a conscious effort to say positive things to myself and I will make an effort to believe what I say as well.  

Stop with the Weight Loss Commericals!

If I see another weight loss commercial I am going to scream. OMG!!! I know there is a market out there for people wanting to believe the scams (ok maybe that is harsh) but!

No! I don't want to skip breakfast and lunch and replace it with your shake, if I want to shake I will turn on some music. That should burn some calories.

 Also I don't care if you got some new chefs to make your food system better than ever! Yes I know 90 days of exercise will change my body, I can get that whether I use your method or not! Finally, just because some singer lost some weight counting points doesn't make me want to count points too... I can't hate on her though she looks FAB!

All jokes aside (if you found that funny) I have nothing against those commercials it's just sometimes like they are so ANNOYING!Especially when you see one every other commercial. What I hate most of those commercials is that they never give you all the facts. They tell you how much weight a particular person has lost but they never tell you how long it took them to lose the weight. They also do not tell you how much exercise the person did or for how long. Never mind the fact that they put in small (barely visible) white writing that Results May Vary! But I guess I should complain about the food commercials rather than the workout commercials because food commercials always make me hungry!But that is another post for another day. 

Happy New Year! (Better Late than Never)

I just want to wish each and everyone of you a very Happy New Year! Health, Strength and Happiness extended to everyone!

Pure Randomness...

For the last few days (the last 2 weeks is more like it) I have been going through some personal struggles, and I am feeling extremely overwhelmed. I will let you all in on a little "secret" about me I do not handle change/stress well. Whenever I feel overwhelmed I literally shut down. I just pretty much stare at the TV and try not to think about everything that is going on at the moment. I know it doesn't solve anything but I have to deal with my issues the best way I know how.  I will not get into specifics, I am just letting you know why my posts have been a bit scarce. Oh yeah and don't worry about me I am a big girl. Shit happens sometimes...lol 

Aside from my personal issues, Sir is only here for two more weeks (booo) so I am trying to enjoy every second I have with him. That doesn't leave much time for posting. 

Aside from the two things I just mentioned I haven't been doing much as far as exercise and nutrition is concerned. I still exercise but I also eat everything in sight. That is counter productive and so I have been gaining slowly but surely. I currently weigh about 206lbs (BOOOO!!) I will get back on track though I am not concerned about it.

Tomorrow January 2nd I will be recommitting to my healthy life style. 2011 for me is about fitness and getting my ish (shit/stuff/life) in order. Sir and I have so many plans for this year but they will be announced at a later date. Right now I need an extra day to get over my anxiety. I want to feel carefree for one last day. Until Tomorrow!

Thanks for Reading!