LIfe Update.

Hey All,

Its been a while, nothing much has been going on since my last post. I have been meaning to do a small life update to let you all know what I have been up to while I have neglected blogging... Now is a good moment so here it goes... Oh I am not pregnant. Is it just me or is everyone getting pregnant this year?  Anyways...lol 

I don't think I have ever mentioned this before; I was in uni for a while, working on my teaching degree. Last year September I was placed in a local government high school to teach 7-9 graders. I will say that that was the most stressful my life has been in years, but I got over that and passed. So now I am a certified Spanish teacher. Yaaaay me. Then in December my husband moved here. We still live with my mother (boooooooo) and its been kinda stressful having him move his stuff into my room but we make it work. Now I hope you can follow cause I am going to talk about the fact that I am now a teacher again...lol 

Since graduating I have been waiting to get placed permanently in a government school (I am assuming that everyone knows what I mean by government school). However, since there are no vacancies in Nassau I will have to be relocated to another island aka family island. I am excited about this for three reasons. Reason number 1. There are extra perks that comes along with moving to a family island the main one being that they pay rent for you.  2. I will be outta my mothers house. 3 I will be away from my mother....lol So technically I only listed two reasons but number 2 was so important that I had to say it again. My post will  be confirmed within a month and in that time I will know exactly where I will be going.

I don't know if its my age (28, clock's ticking) or the fact that I am married, but my maternal desire has kicked in, I find it very strange because I didnt ever want kids and my husband is still on the fence about it but he said if I really want to them he is fine with it. With that being said, no I am still not pregnant and I am not trying yet (well you know what I mean...wink) but I do want to start trying next year June. With that being said, I am not going to try to get pregnant unless I am in a healthy weight range. Which means that I have about a year to get my body back on the right track if I want to start my family.

Water Fast Day 3

2:35pm

The temptation is increasing again. Have you noticed that I always get tempted around the same time of day? Today my mother made boiled vegetables, BBQ chicken and potato salad which is one of my favourite meals and so my desire to break the fast is immense. So much so that I have decide to eat some food at 7:00pm the official end of my day 3. I have a whole host of reasons why I want to give up. But the biggest factor is I am tired of being tempted by food. Everywhere I turn I see food. I work around pastries and because I am the only one fasting in the house I see food all the time. Last night my nephew decided to eat his Wendy's in my room and I had to resist stealing his nuggets. I have at this point come to the conclusion that this is not the right time for me to be doing this. I am grateful for the three days that I am going to complete. Now moving forward I have to come up with a plan of action.

This post is two days old. I didn't post it when I was supposed to post it. Since I wrote those words I have decided to start a new fast. This time it will be from now to until Sunday. I think I may have bitten off more than I could chew thinking that I could do a 30 day fast. I am ambitious if nothing else. However I think my fear of commitment won over my determination to finish something. In the main  time. I have to decide what exercise program I will do, and how I will eat going forward. Even as I type this I am battling myself. One part of me doesn't want to give up on something else that I planned to accomplish. But another part of me is saying that this isn't the right time for it and I am only torturing myself. When 7pm comes then I will know what voice I will choose to side with. I have to set a new set of goals for myself and work super hard to achieve it.... My next post is going to contradict some of the things I posted here but it is what it is....

Day 2 of Fasting

I hope that you get my strange sense of humour. This is an account of how my Day 2 went. At random times in the day I blog about my moodiness or how I am feeling and what I am craving. I tend to think and blog a lot about the foods that I am craving. I am sure you will notice that though.

1:24pm

The desire to eat something is really strong right now. My cousin bought a malt drink and watching her guzzle (drink) it down is giving me visions of snatching it from her and finishing it. It's funny how a defiant mind can play tricks on you. Anyways this feeling shall soon pass. Already my cravings are a lot less than what I had yesterday so I cant complain too much. My aunt cooked yellow grits and sausage today for breakfast and it smelt amazing!!!!! I swear the senses are heightened when you know you cant have something. My mood is starting to pick up so that is always a plus. 

2:12pm

Just made my husband something to eat and while I was cooking it my mind wasn't on the food. But now that he is eating it I am thinking eggs never looked so good.. lol (yes he eats eggs in the middle of the day)I was looking at some blogs and people had food on it and everything looked delicious even foods that I don't usually eat. I noticed that I have started craving watermelon today. That is a fruit that I don't usually eat but I did have watermelon last week so maybe my mind just remembers watermelon from that. I am noticing how much I think about food and it is A LOT!!!!.  

5:04pm

I have a little less than an hour left in this place and I am happy to say that my cravings had not been as bad as they were yesterday. I still think about food but the sweet stuff do not entice me much. I have been craving "real" food. For example some mashed potatoes would be really nice right now. I even craved tea and lemonade right now. I spent my in between time reading about water fasting experiences that other bloggers had. 

8:08 

The cravings are back... Yesterday I went to bed early I can only hope that I will have the same reaction tonight. 

 Status/Symptoms/Mood: 

So far I think feel pretty good. Other than the cravings and the slight moodiness I haven't noticed any of the dizziness or headaches that I have read other people talk about. When I fasted in March I felt great the entire time.  I could have easily done more than the 89 hours (there about just a few hours short of four days). I am hoping that this time around my fasting is "uneventful" but I think that would be too good to be true.

I still have a bad taste in my mouth and my tongue is starting to get a little bit painful. I did have some stomach cramps today but it only lasted a few seconds. During the night I  feel asleep on my left arm and it go numb and tingly. My first though was oh shit am I going to have a heart attack???? I was seriously scared because  I had never had that numb feeling before in my arm and I couldnt move it at all. I picked it up with my right hand and it instantly feel to the side. I did that twice and the second time it woke up my husband. When I told him about  it he said he had that several times before so that eased my worries. My left arm is still a bit tingly this morning and my legs feel sore but other than that I feel good.

Day 1 of Water Fasting

This is an account of my Day 1 of fasting. Day one was tough. Yesterday I wrote that how I felt during specific times of the day when the cravings were really bad and when I really wanted to give up.

1:00pm

I have about 6 hours to make it through my first 24 hours of the fast and I swear this ish is a lot harder than I remember it being the last time I did this. Like what the heck???? I want something to eat so badly that I am daydreaming about food. The constant smell of cake is seriously doing a number on my will power. I think I make go and look at pictures of cooked dog meat (sorry dog lovers) or something to take my mind off of eating. So to report other than the constant nagging feeling I have to eat something I am still good. 

2:45pm

I have managed to stay on track and ignore the craving. Did I say this is harder than I remember? It really doesn't help to be surrounded by cakes and ice cream and everything tempting. I leave this place at 6pm. I am still daydreaming about eating cake every time I serve a customer but so far I am resisting temptation.

Remainder of the day:

I was able to ignore the cravings and I made it through my first day of water fasting. I must say that I fought myself ALL DAY. There were times when I thought that it was pointless and I doubted my intentions and I wanted to give up. There were times when I almost did. Right now I feel like what I am doing is hellava (really) ridiculous. And for that reason alone I intended to go for 30days. (<------ I must be insane). I am committing myself to a 30 day water fast. I want to do it because I believe that I will find great spiritual growth and I think that need to prove to myself that I can finish something despite how difficult it may be. So let the count down begin.

A little more than 1 Day down  a little less than 29 more to go.

Status Update:

Mood: My mood sucks. I am not in a good mood at all. I am constantly smelling food and it makes me want food. Thankfully, Monday is a holiday here and I am off on Sunday so I will spend those two days relaxing, mediating and I will be saying a whole lot of prayers to get through these next 30 days. I feel a little less bloated. I have good levels of energy. Last night I went to bed at 8:30pm. Usually I don't go to sleep until 11pm. I am guess that because I went to bed so early I got up four times last night. I noticed that my mouth has a little extra saliva today and my teeth are sensitive. And of course I have a bad taste in my mouth. I hope my breathe don't stink...lol I am going to have to ask my husband to do breathe check.

How are you all doing today? I am wishing you great success and a wonderful day...

Sincerely Shanny

Water Fasting Day....

Bet you thought I was going to do a disappearing act again right??? Hey???? You did I know you did...lol *justforlaughs*

Oh one thing before I start my post. I didn't stop blogging because I fell off the wagon or was doing horrible. I know that is often the case. I was actually doing pretty good when I stopped blogging. I fell off because I stopped blogging. Then it was harder for me to get back into blogging because I had nothing to report on. I didn't want to come on here and talk about what I wanted to do, I wanted to come on here and talk about what I was doing.  I tried a few times to pick myself up on my own but I realize now that I needed that support that I got from you, my fellow bloggers and I just needed somewhere to vent because apparently I am an emotional eater and when things are eating at me I eat.... (<----- You probably can't tell but I am still a bit in denial about that.) Anyways I want to talk you again for sticking in there with me and for your continued support as I start this journey all over again... 

Now, How did water fasting go????

Yesterday I started off good. I was motivated, and I was sure I was going to be able to complete Day 1. I was saying no to all the food offers and temptations that came my way. I work in a bakery right now so all I have is temptations.  I had my mantra in my mind and I was chanting " I will not die if I do not eat today" I must have said that about 50 times then all of a sudden my mind betrayed me and my mantra became " I want to eat today! I will not die if I eat today..." I was like what the what??? Now usually this wouldn't be such a bad thing. I want to fast yes but I have nothing against eating, but at that point I work in a Bakery and I wanted cake... Sigh  Needless to say I gave into the temptation and now my day 1 starts today. I am more confident that I will be able to make it past Day 1 today. I hope that helps this time. Yesterday I ate at 6pm so 7pm will be the end of my first day. Wish me luck please... I will probably make another post today when temptation starts to kick in.... 

Thanks for reading, I really and truly appreciate you all and I missed you I am very happy to be back :D

Side note: recently this reporter called Nellie Day wrote this very crappy and insulting article about the types of homes Bahamians live in. It is obvious that she has never been here. I think it would be interesting for you to read it. I couldn't find the original post because it was taken down but someone else posted what she wrote because he/she responded to it and that's the link that I will post. If you are interested read it and let me know what you think. I laughed about it. 

http://www.bahamaslocal.com/newsitem/49890/A_Story_By_Nellie_Day__What_Types_of_Houses_Do_People_Live_in_the_Bahamas.html

Who Knew...

...that it would be so hard to start blogging again? I didn't have any intentions on staying away as long as I did but for some reason I couldn't get back into it again. Life got in the way and dieting and getting healthy took a backseat. I am not going to say that I am back because I have said that one too many times already. But I am going to say thanks to everyone who was concerned about me and who remembered me even in my times of absence.

My weight sucks right now. I have no idea how much I weigh (my scale is broken) but I am sure its either in the high 190s or the low 200s. I have been eating loads of junk foods lately and I haven't been exercising so its expected.

My plan moving forward.

I am going to water fast. I did a 3.5 day water fast in March and I felt really good after the fast. My body wasn't  feeling right and I didn't have a visit from TOM in about 6months but after I water fast everything worked itself out so now  I am a believer in the healing proprieties of water fasting. I have not decided how long I will water fast for I know that it will be for a minimum of 4 days and a maximum of 30 days. I would like to make it to 30 days but I think a more realistic goal for me is a max 10 days. But we shall see ...

To help me get back into blogging and get back on track with my weight loss I am going to document my experience with water fasting this time around. I do not intend to monitor my weight while fasting because I think that it was too much of a distraction the last time that I did it. I also do not intend to monitor my weight because weight loss during fasting is not accurate so whats the point? But I am saying that this will help me get back on track because I am using fasting to gain spiritual, emotional and physical healing before I go full force into working out again.

My dos and don'ts while fasting...

I drink water, I do not over drink water. One of the best things about fasting is that you are giving your body a break from having to digest food so that it can make repairs and heal itself. If I drink water excessively the only thing I will be doing is giving my kidneys more work to do. Seems a bit pointless to me. I drink when I feel like it I do not have a water limit.

I do not do enemas or flushing or anything like that. I have grown to expect a bit of constipation during fasting but that always goes away once I start eating again so I do not sweat it I let my body do what it wants to do.

I do not do strenuous exercising.

Finally before I end this post I want to say I am not an advocate for fasting. If you are against fasting or you find it pointless don't do it. If you have diabetes and you think you are interested in trying it you should consult your doctor and if you haven't done it before you should talk to your doctor first. I am fasting because I feel sluggish and I feel bloated and fasting made me feel less sluggish and a lot less bloated the last time around. I am fasting because I want to do it.

Any One Still there????

Hey Folks :D

I know its been ages since I was on here last and A LOT has happened and I have been extremely busy and for that reason I couldnt come on here. I apologize for simply vanishing without so much as a warning that I would be gone a while but I have missed you all and I have missed blogging as well... I will be back with a proper post at the end of this week I just wanted to say HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY! Hope everyone is doing great :D

Until next time.