I want your body!

... But am I willing to do what it takes to get it (or something close to it anyways)?

I was looking at a picture of a woman the other day and I said to myself wow I want your body! Almost instantly another thought came to my mind which was are you willing to do what it takes to get it? Then I thought for a minute about what it would take to get her body. Then I thought about it long and hard I would have to work. Then I asked myself again, am I willing to do what it takes to get my body to look like that (if it was possible of course)? Honestly, I have yet to come up with a real answer to that question. The truth is I have a good idea of what works for me, however the fact that I am still on a roller coaster ride as far as my weight is concerned proves that I am not willing to do whatever it takes to get my body where I want it to be. While it is valid to blame, Tom or meds on my fluctuations the truth of the matter is I don't always do what needs to be done. I still eat junk food because I feel like it. Watching food commercials on tv make me hungry but I still watch a lot of television. The only thing I think I have really stuck with is limiting how much ice cream I eat. I have not had ice cream for a month and I used to eat it every week  Nevertheless, I am a work in progress. It may take me a while but I am working on it. Here in lies my dilemma, I may not always do what it takes to get my body where I want it to be but do do it sometimes. Additionally, I am doing less of what I did to get my body to look how it looked when I first realised that I needed to do something about it (if you could follow that). Like I said, I am a work in progress...lol

Something I just realised today is that I only have 11 days left in my 90 day fitness challenge. I cant believe 79 days have passed since I started this challenge. I have had some ups and some downs. February was definitely my best month in terms of exercising and March was my best month in terms of weigh loss. Yesterday when I went on the scale I was back down to 194.6 which I thought was interesting because the day before that I was at 198. All of which convinced me that the scale is corrupt and shouldn't be taken seriously. Even though I know its a bad idea I still judge my success on the number the scale says. This is insanity at it's best. 

Thanks for reading! Happy April's Fools, please don't fall for any pranks today! Especially not from your scales. Enjoy your weekend.