I am happy

After suffering from depression for at least half my years on this earth, it feels good to finally be HAPPY. I woke up this morning and I am filled with so much joy that I can honestly say that I am HAPPY. I have a great relationship with my husband, I have a good relationship with my family but best of all I have a great relationship with myself. Of course there are things that I want to change about myself mainly my weight but for now I am very content with being HAPPY. I just wanted to share... 

For those of you that are sad and feeling depressed, know that you won't feel like that forever, find someone to talk to that will LISTEN to you. For those of you that knows someone that is suffering from depression just LISTEN to them and support them with your love and presence. You don't have to know what to say to them to make them feel better. Chances are they wont believe anything positive that you are saying. If all else fails get professional help.

Until my next post. 

Be blessed and happy

Summer is almost over :( Updates

Ever worked out for an hour and then looked in the mirror afterwards to see if you lost any 20lbs? Please tell me I am not the only one that does that. 

Hey Everyone!

I really thought that I would be more active on here this summer but life actually laziness got in the way and I neglected to update my blog. Nevertheless, I hope that you all are enjoying the summer. I have surely been enjoying mine because I can just feel that I gained about 10lbs. As far as my actual weight is concerned I have no idea how much I currently weigh but I am guessing its anywhere between 187 and 195. That's just based on what I see in the mirror. I am praying that I am not over 195lbs.  I am thinking about buying a scale but I am afraid that if I see 200lbs or even 190lbs on the scale I will give up again.

Therefore, for now I am just blissfully ignorant and just focusing on getting fit. I will probably wait until I get back home next weekend to weigh myself and hopefully by then the number that I see on the scale will not look so scary. I know that the scale should not be my only focus on this journey however  I am motivated to eat right and exercise when I see the number on the scale go down. I have finally made up my mind that my goal weight is 130lbs and I AM going to be at the weight by March of next year. My goal for the end of this year is to be at 150lbs. I know I can do it I just have to put in the work and make certain sacrifices. I keep promising to post some updated pictures I will do that tomorrow morning and I will also post my goals for next week. 

Thanks for reading

Talk to you in another post.